290612

老公，

最近我不知道我们怎么了
我们看似很痛苦
我们都付出了很多，
可是为什么双方都很痛？
为什么不能像其他情侣那样？

我反复想了很多次，
是不是我不适合你？
还是年龄真的是个问题？
如果我想太多，你会生气

我不喜欢HIAO
因为我有阴影
以前被你妈妈抓到，
她跟我说的话，我都记得，也很怕
然后你跟妈妈回家了，
我就写了一堆信本来要给你的
内容都是分开会比较好
对，就是你每次要看的DIARY
我不给你看的那一个

我很喜欢COUNSELLING朋友，家人
以前的我也觉得，男朋友也不例外
我尝试跟你说我的感受
你 不想听

刚才我真的真的很伤心
我没想到你好是那么的在意HIAO
你生气，骂我，我习惯了
可是你竟然丢了钱包？
前一秒开心的时候可以把我当PRINCESS那样照顾，疼爱
一旦发起脾气就可以把我丢了想丢钱包那样
从那一刻起我就知道事情不是那么简单
我到现在想起就很心痛
死了的心不能再修补

我知道你妈妈家人都觉得我不是好女孩
因为我们在一起之后
你完全变了
我也不想再说什么了
请不要到了失去才后悔

3 months :3 :3

3 months dy, 3 months dy:DDD

My first relationship with my sweet heart babe eustace been through all the 3 months difficulties:) So damn happy :))))) Im sure we'll maintain it until the end of the world.. 

Hmm Hmm.. So 3 months anniversary shoulda celebrate right?

But we end up by just stay inside bilik bacaan for 4 hours.. 

We kissed, I love the feelings hubbie kiss me:)

I feel like he's my one now and forever

So damn cute chubby face with spec:))

Hubbie, I love u~ :3

I want you~ :3

Ahaha, I thought i bring some books there, maybe can do a little bit of revision while hiao-ing:(

But it doesn't works XDDDD Sure >..< We want each other only.. Ignore other things..

Babe gave me a cute gifts ever... Although he kept say that's ugly But for me it just worth that everything in my life.. Cute cute cute ,.. AWWW:** 

I gave my babe a miaw doll:) haha.. Because i so wanna give him a very memorable and useful things to exchange. I saw grandma doing some sewing stuffs at the living room, got some books on how to make a hand-made mini doll. And at the same time i decided to do that.. XD

Yesterday afternoon i tried out the first doll>..< Omg it just so ugly and weird.. :(((

After dinner, im very sure i wanna make him a new one, and i really hope it can be make just like how i figure out.. XDD

It going smoothly from the beginning, i draw the miaw shape and draw it again on the fabric.. Design all miaw's eys, mouth and write something on it.. It was fine until the drawing parts..

And now the terror part come, omgggg... I just knew i can't sew.. Because i can make it easily in front parts so i thought it can works until the end.. The sewing part really make my things mess up>..< and it's already 3 o'clock.. Oh dear.. Im not sleepy but i scared i cant wake up the next morning..

i tried 4 times of sewing.. and finally it works a little bit.. But because some part really ermm :XX

so i just put a button to hide the weaknesses XDDDDDDDDDD

At bilik bacaan i was damn high:XX rubbing made me highXD

And my pants WXX so shy when hubbie told me:((

So i just like moodless to kiss again because im shocked..

After getting home, I think of my pants again:

Actually im happy with it, at least my first time pants wet because of too high is for my husband..:3

My husband made my dayyXDDD

I really want to do that again with my really 'pro' hubbie XDDD

Aww.. I love today.. miaw and et's big day:3

               Without realising, we have been together for almost 3 most dy <3 <3. We had face and overcome many hurdles =)). and our relationship is becoming stronger day by day <3 <3. Loove u sweetheart :)) <3. Remember the day  u wanna break up with me 28 March 2012. I feel so sad,and i cried for more than an hour >_<. I reli dont want to stop or break up. But at 29 March,you said that u don't want to stop or break up with me. I was so happy shed all the sad tears from my eyes <3 .. You asked me to forgive u for your selfishness. So dumb that question. HAHAHAHA~~~ XDDD. DUMMY :PPP. Of coz i will forgive<3 :DDD. That night i really sleep peacefully >_<..

               Hahaha :))). Last saturday we kisss and love bite <3. See those love bite scar so obvious at my shoulder and urs,i feel so xin fu <3 <3.Wanna Honey bite me harder >_<. Want to kiss with u forever no let go d.=)).Damn love you honey. I swear to myself that i will married you <3. Protect you for my entire life <3. I will not let anything snatch away you. :D. Yesterday,sweet message from you melted  heart. Keep read those messages <3. I realised my live is nothing without u honey. =)). We swear to each other that we wont leave each other no matter what happen <3. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEeEEEEE YYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUU <3 <3 <3 :* :* :*.

                Today,when you are going back home. I am not proposely bu li ni. My hand palm bleed n painful>.<. And your family members keep staring me inside the car. LOL. Paiseh xia.. HAHAHAHA >.<. I feel so bad when u say i bu li ni. T_T. Keep saying sorry to you. Scare u don't want forgive me T_T. If u dont forgive me I will cry until die T_T.. EHHHHHHH, I wan put photo d.. But how? >_<. Noobie must ask honey tomorrow how to uploaaaaaaaaaaadddddddddddddd photo at our bloggie <3 <3 <3 <3.. HAHAHA.. 

                That's all for today.. Continue next time <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 :* :* :* Muackssssssssss <3 Lao po read leerrr don't laugh at me tis noobie >_<. LOve you for  a thousand years babe lao po <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3.

13 March : My hubby

My hubby sibeh cute.. XD
I damn love him..
The moment we kissed, i love it and miss it.. >.<
Love babe dear~ :3 Our bloggie, photos recorded all our sweet memoriesXD
Damn nice:3

I Love U forever:3 my lao gong~

Hubby Hubby HUBBY~ :3

This is going to happen right after we get married:3

Babe, see this.. ewww ~ I know what u're thinking right now..
Hrmm something high one___ eeeeee~ yellow yellow mind XD

Of course, My hubby not that bad.. He's awesome AWESOME~
Very kinda and sensitive..
Opps, the sensitive means this ~ :3

Ahha, I know right babe hubby.. that's jus looks like you after 20 years or 30 years old:3
Cute si~
muackkss<3

20Jan2012

Move forward into a new year,
Our relationship seems more stronger enough with the blessings of God=)

Since yesterday, everything ruined.
Unexpected, Totally stunned.
My first tears for the new year, first sadness, first love..
It makes me think back the memories we been through,
The happiness, jealousy? Haha.. Nice ehhhhh=))

But right now, i can't feel anything of it..
The feelings just come.
We promised not to stop it right now, and that's what i wished for.

Can't express our real feelings out with each other during school hours.
Can't be too close,
We need to act like : We're just friend.
Alright, i can do it:))

Before sleep, i think back then things happened yesterday.
It so hurts..
Yup, It does..

... =) Happy New Year Dear :D

:)

24Dec
- John kept on asking me who i like. Says Et asked.
Alright, I love you babe. I tell you d..:))
You say you got a best christmas gift ever from Santa Claus..:) Im melted aside.

25Dec
- All sweet messages, sweet bloggie, U asked for my blog password yesterday. I forgot and kept trying the password. Thats all my brother's fault..LOL He guessed my password and 'hack' in read and copy all my 'secrets'.. Luckily, i DELETE some of it:) That day really sweet, I love u babe:)

26Dec
-We planned out to meet. But my cousin's birthday ruins it, and it's HEAVY rain:( Im kinda worry you didn't bring your umbrella dummy! Really dumb one Rejang River Teh-C peng..Argh!! Alright alright, U told me u met anna:) my beb..lolss.. On d way back, lost in half way until reach cousin's house, We message:) BP keep bully you huh? lols, says things between us.. Ah yong asked me something... Yea..you know it:)

I felt like insecure suddenly. Scared I ruin your life. Moody mode and first thing i wanna do just ask for your help. You so so sweet dear.. U're happy with our bloggie.. I told you my problem, u tried to solve but it didn't works. I called my friend, A friend who was strong enough and had experiences on guiding people in love?? She's a counselor:) I told her my problems... Conclusion was Im not ready. And it's terrible, because if you're not ready in a relationship , you might ruin it. So i decided, to pause it. I don't want you hurt, because scars will never gone:)

That time really feel like hell, I wanna hug you so much:( Im not crying. Just want you here.. Accompany me.. Hugging. :) But with your sweet messages I happy:) Sayang You babe:) Love ya:*

27Dec
- You message me when it's 11.21am in the morning. I was cleaning up my roomie.. Mummy forced. lols... I told you we gonna pause for it. U cried.. I feel bad.. Made u cry T.T But i want u be strong! I want you be the one protect me .. When facing problem be a man, but no cry.. Of course, everyone will cry.. So i wanna be your counselor make u stand up for it and accept all the things i said. It's cruel but so real. I feel kinda stressed when others put their eyes focus on us. I can't breathe like normal. I want dummy I want your laugh.. I want we keep play miss call..Morning call....
Thats the reasons im fall for you babe:) Hope you understand:)

So, Babe..
Don't cry
Wipe your tears with tissue,
Stand up again..

Focus on study :) I'll wait u..
You need to wait me too.. I love you.:)

-michie 1712pm 27Dec-